I'm not going to apologize.

Life happens.

Friends ask where you’ve been?  The response “life happens”.

You hear that saying all the time.

It’s true. Life does happen.

The last few months there has been snowstorms, sleepless nights, and changes to schedules.

In the process, my best friend’s dog passed away, my health took a slight turn and I saw my husband a total of 10 hours in the month of February.

Life Happens right?

I find myself apologizing to friends to whom we have not seen in months, some years.

It is embarrassing. A goal this year was to make more time for family and friends and we are almost 4 months into the New Year and I’ve yet to see my family.

 I miss them. Terribly. There’s some scheduled time off to get over and hug my mom, squeeze my nephews and sing horribly with my sisters very soon!

 

I need to first thank my husband Kyle.

Babe, I’ve never been so lucky to have someone get me like you do. Thank you for helping me and encouraging me. I’m so lucky.

Now to thank you. Yes YOU!

Thank you for supporting my dream.

 I don’t think ya’ll understand the level of appreciation and gratitude I have for you.

The support you have shown since day 1, believing in what I do and me. Following my passion and love for all things traffic. Seriously, thank you.

I have always had a dream to start a podcast, and I did it. It’s taking off and it’s all because of you. It’s a love of communication, to make sure you get the info YOU need. 

The passion for traffic has always been there, it started when I moved here. This podcast is another outlet outside of my work with TV and radio.

Honestly, I was scared to start it.

More so worried what others would say, or what they would think. Will people listen to it? Will they like it and subscribe to hear me talk about something they HATE?

I was tired of letting fear of the unknown hold me back. Therefore, I did it.

Currently reading Rachel Hollis “Girl, Stop apologizing” and it is helping me embrace a new feeling.

I’m tired of holding myself back. I will no longer apologize for working as hard as I do, continuing to build my brand.

For years you have followed me, trusted me to be your source for traffic. I’m so very grateful for that!

My promise to you: I will never let you down, not now, not ever.


Sorry it's been a while..

 I know that it has been a while since I have wrote anything. NO excuses, I just did not know what to write to be honest with you. 

The past few months I have spent journaling, segmented thoughts honestly. It’s when something comes to mind, a thought, phrase, feeling that I capture in the moment and write it down or in this case… put into my phone. Many thoughts have been segmented lately.

Just too busy to have time for myself.

So let’s play catch up..

 

My friend Elaine has finished her chemo/radiation for breast cancer 2 weeks ago! Great news!

Work has been so rewarding. I have some great bosses who let me continue my love for all things traffic.

There has been in 2 car accidents since November. One 10 days before Thanksgiving (which totaled my car) and the other happened in February while we were LIVE on the air at KIRO.

I did get hurt, while I maintained composure on the air. Several days later, the doctor diagnosed me with a concussion. There is a care plan in place for me, and I have been following that to a T.

Kiddo’s global reading challenge was a few weeks ago and the team did great! Took 4th place.

Spring break is next week and there is a LOT going on for all of us.

Spent some time with family in Eastern Washington.

And I'm ready for some warmer weather!

 

While it’s been brought up here before, I wanted to touch on something that has been weighing very heavily on my mind.

 

Depression.

 

Friends, you know that I’ve shared struggles with you about my battle. This time of year seems to be the hardest for me for some reason. I have not been able to pull myself up & out of this “Funk”. Not sure if it has something to do with friends/co-workers/life that’s been breaking me down.

Usually I lean on my husband or others for joy, because their joy makes me feel better. It helps me see some “light”.  It’s doesn’t always work so, I read Brene Brown.  She has has ONE POWERFUL message.

Owning my feelings and trying to walk thru them. While this is not a new path for me, this time feels different. Not sure if it is because I’ve shoved it down for so long? Made everyone else’s needs a priority over myself and just neglected what I was feeling?

I don’t have those answers.  The search for them continues.

It’s come down to self care, self preservation for me right now. Being selfish.

I’m ok with that.

This is a new journey of depression that I’m on. Never at anytime have these feelings come over me. While it’s scaring me, it’s forcing me to face these feelings head on. It’s exhausting running away from them, what good does that do?


At a young age, some of us ran from our problems, as an adult some of us still do.  The feeling to confront it, work thru the feeling, understanding & accepting it is extremely rewarding. I’m on that journey now.

While I do have someone to talk to, and a wonderful husband to lean on. I just want you to know that you are not alone in your journey. There is someone always here to help guide you.

 

 

 

What a Year!

2017 was one hell of a year.


It all started with the unknown.

Here I was unemployed, lost, depressed and just couldn’t find myself.  I have dealt with depression most of my life and have been able to manage it. This time was something that I just couldn’t pull myself out of. Kyle did everything right. He threw my 40th birthday party in hopes that this would make me feel better. While it numbed the pain temporarily, I found myself right back into a hole only a few days later.

I think what made me so depressed was the fear of the unknown. I had just lost something that I loved so much - working with some people that I cared a lot.  The fear was real. Would I ever bounce back? Will I land on my feet? Is it time to change gears when it comes to my career? These questions kept me up at night and clouded my judgement.  It was the constant support from my husband Kyle, my family, and all of you who kept me going.  After a few days of soul searching,  I picked myself up and got back on the horse. I spent hours applying to jobs in different fields, taking risks and hitting the pavement harder than I ever had before.  In hindsight, this was a very BIG blessing.

I lost a LOT of me in the last few months of 2016. I was so buried into work that I lost the work/life balance.  I would eat, barely sleep, and work. There was no time for fun. Kyle and friends would consistently ask me to go do things and all I could say was “I’m working."


This year I spent a lot of time re-establishing work/life balance and what makes me happy.

What is it that makes ME happy? It’s the old saying that you have to be happy and love yourself before you can love others.  I reconnected with friends and pounded the pavement searching for something in my field where work would never feel like working.  Most importantly, I spent more time with my step daughter and husband.  Things that made me extremely happy.  As for loving me, still working on that.

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2017 brought a new job. Or should I say jobs? KIRO 7 asked me to come on as freelance/fill-in back in April. KIRO Radio approached me in May to come on and do the same. In September, I signed a contract for both stations and I’m back to loving work.  Both  stations have some of the most amazing, talented people and I’ve never been happier. I’m appreciated and respected.  It’s a beautiful thing when I get to do 2 things that feed my passion: TV traffic and being back in a radio studio.

There have been several other high highs this year. One of my dearest friends had her first child. While she was very quiet about her journey, she finally opened up with her struggle to have a child. It’s a journey that many people go thru. It’s painful to watch your friend go thru the roller coaster of trying to have a baby. I prayed for her every day.  The great news is that her daughter was born earlier this month. While I have not been able to see her yet (we’ve had the plague run thru our home and continues to do so), I will be there soon to snuggle with her and give her some “Aunt Tracy” treatment.

Another high has been watching my step daughter come into her own. Finding her independence and mimicking her dad. She’s quite witty and super sharp. I love her more and more each day! I’m excited to be a part of her life and watch her continue to develop into quite the young woman.  

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This also brings me to my husband.

We have had some fun trips this year. The one that I love the most is our annual fishing trip. While I did miss a few trips this year with him since I was working freelance, the one trip for our anniversary will always be my favorite. Kyle grinned and beared it when asked to go do random things this year from Zoolights, concerts, and social gatherings that were more than out of his comfort zone.  He collaborated with friends to throw my 40th birthday party. He played in a summer softball league where I've held deep friendships for over 12 years.  He’s been amazing this year and I fall more in love with him every single day.

There were some low lows too.

Friends got divorced, friends/family passed away, and my best friend was diagnosed with breast cancer.

I know that you’ve seen the posts and pictures with her. What you don’t know is the history about our friendship.

We became fast friends thru the world of social media.  She has been there thru bad break ups, loss, and love. She has become like another sister to me.

When she was diagnosed this summer, I was crushed.  What was just a doctor visit for spider bites turned into a mammogram, which turned into a biopsy, and then the news.  While it wasn’t what she or anyone expected, she has taken on this horrible cancer head on.

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Strong is an understatement when it comes to Elaine. Superwoman is more like it. How she has managed composure thru this, I honestly don’t know.  I’ve seen the tears, seen the fear, and will continue to stand by her in this journey. She has been thru the worst when it comes to the chemo and has four of her 16 treatments left. Up next up will be radiation!

I’m proud of her more than I can put into words.


2017 has brought some challenges, but it’s also brought some amazing moments. While I’ve learned a lot about myself this year, I’m excited to learn more in the years to come.

Here’s to you friends!  Thank you for lifting me up for the 1st part of this year while I was at my lowest. I appreciate you following me thru this thing called a career and being great friends!

 

Fall is Full of New Beginnings!

Hello friends!

I can't believe that summer is almost over and the kids are all back to school!

Jessica didn't have much of a summer length-wise since schools got out near the end of June. I'll tell you though she made the most of her time off with:

  • trips with camping with her mom.
  • a mini vacay to Oregon with Kyle and his brother and sister in law.
  • Bruno Mars with Kyle and his mom.
  • and to wrap up the summer we took her to Silverwood in Idaho just last weekend and spent some time with my parents in Spokane.

Here's a little update on what's going on. 

After a few months away from TV,  KIRO 7 called in April. The News Director asked if I'd be interested in trying something new - Team Traffic.

I agreed to work for them as a freelance reporter. Over the course of a couple of weeks, I was taught VOSOT, VO, SOTVO, and all sorts of TV slang. Language that I was NEVER given the opportunity to learn before. 

So honored that people that I've looked up to and respected spent THEIR time teaching me. Never dreamed that I would be given a chance to learn anything but traffic. 

For most of my career, I was told I'd "only be a traffic reporter." Proud to say I've now through the opportunities given me at KIRO had a taste of general assignment reporting. This training has helped me be a better storyteller. 

As you've seen (or if you haven't) I've now accepted a permanent position with KIRO 7 as a traffic anchor/reporter. Real-time Team Traffic is now every morning on KIRO 7 from 4:30 AM to 7:00 AM. 

BUT WAIT! 

THERE'S MORE!!

The past few months I've also been working as a fill-in when needed on the Ron and Don Show at KIRO Radio 97.3. They have recently made a few changes. Candy has moved into the producer role for the show. Pete and Bryan have given me a chance to come back to my radio roots - I'll be working on a permanent basis every afternoon from 3-7 with the guys bringing traffic for your commute home!

You can follow my new work Twitter account at: @TracyTKIRO7

I'm ecstatic where this road has lead. To be honest, I never thought this would happen. 

Thank you all for the love and support over all the years, I wouldn't be where I am and where I continue to go without each one of you. I can't put into words how much I appreciate you.

Again, Thank you!