Pressing on the heart and mind..

Heavy.. So much heavy.

I do not know how chronic pain sufferers deal with this.

 Waking up with a headache EVERY SINGLE DAY..

Some days are better than others. I notice a difference when it gets closer to injection day.

To recap, there was a car accident Feb last year while we were on the air. Hit at 35 mph.  Sustained a concussion. Since then, I have been dealing with headaches.

 Imagine having a migraine headache every single day of your life. That is how I feel.

Every.   Day.

Doctors have done everything to find a way to make me feel somewhat normal again. I have injections every 8 weeks. Sometimes up to 30 shots in my head neck and shoulders. Doctors have put me on a migraine self-injection every month. They have put me on muscle relaxers, over the counter meds like Excedrin and I drink a TON of water.

The pain is draining. It robs me of my life, my happiness, and my freedom. You would never know since I smile thru the hurt, grind thru the pain.

I am not asking for anything here, I just needed to vent.

 

There is a full court press to get what you have been asking for on the podcast!

 I hope you checked it out and subscribed on Itunes. Jenn reached out with questions on the ferries. We found out why there are no north/south ferries. This week, an update on the most talked about Hwy 16/I-5 interchange.

Need some help here, looking for a photographer who will take some lifestyle pics for the website. If you know of anyone, send him or her my way.

 

Something that has been pressing on my heart lately, how you treat others and how others treat you. This is a convo kiddo and I talk about a lot. Quite a bit actually.

Convo this week with a friend on why people will go out of their way to break you.

Not quite sure why this is still happening?

Why are we NOT nice to each other? So confusing.

It is a terrible shame that we all have the same goal at the end of the day. Spread kindness.

We need more of that.

“we rise by lifting others”- Robert Ingersoll

 

I'm not going to apologize.

Life happens.

Friends ask where you’ve been?  The response “life happens”.

You hear that saying all the time.

It’s true. Life does happen.

The last few months there has been snowstorms, sleepless nights, and changes to schedules.

In the process, my best friend’s dog passed away, my health took a slight turn and I saw my husband a total of 10 hours in the month of February.

Life Happens right?

I find myself apologizing to friends to whom we have not seen in months, some years.

It is embarrassing. A goal this year was to make more time for family and friends and we are almost 4 months into the New Year and I’ve yet to see my family.

 I miss them. Terribly. There’s some scheduled time off to get over and hug my mom, squeeze my nephews and sing horribly with my sisters very soon!

 

I need to first thank my husband Kyle.

Babe, I’ve never been so lucky to have someone get me like you do. Thank you for helping me and encouraging me. I’m so lucky.

Now to thank you. Yes YOU!

Thank you for supporting my dream.

 I don’t think ya’ll understand the level of appreciation and gratitude I have for you.

The support you have shown since day 1, believing in what I do and me. Following my passion and love for all things traffic. Seriously, thank you.

I have always had a dream to start a podcast, and I did it. It’s taking off and it’s all because of you. It’s a love of communication, to make sure you get the info YOU need. 

The passion for traffic has always been there, it started when I moved here. This podcast is another outlet outside of my work with TV and radio.

Honestly, I was scared to start it.

More so worried what others would say, or what they would think. Will people listen to it? Will they like it and subscribe to hear me talk about something they HATE?

I was tired of letting fear of the unknown hold me back. Therefore, I did it.

Currently reading Rachel Hollis “Girl, Stop apologizing” and it is helping me embrace a new feeling.

I’m tired of holding myself back. I will no longer apologize for working as hard as I do, continuing to build my brand.

For years you have followed me, trusted me to be your source for traffic. I’m so very grateful for that!

My promise to you: I will never let you down, not now, not ever.


With the start of a new year, comes a new project.

I have been meaning to write for a while. When you are caught up in Viaduct closures, it comes later.

Sorry friends, it HAS been a while.

First off, Happy New Year.. late.

As you can imagine, life has been Viaduct and all things related.

I will not rest until we all get in the new tunnel. It’s only a week.. Just a week.. Hopefully.

You will notice some new changes to the website with the help from a friend. Thanks Elaine for all the help on making this look so fresh and so clean!

Friends! I’m excited to announce a new podcast will be up shortly. This weekend in fact.

Guys, this is a look into my crazy busy and loving life.

Hope you will love it as much as I love doing it.

Yes, Kyle will be a part of this. He just does not know it yet.

I will explain more about this in the first episode. Keep checking back this weekend!

Meet Clark..

At the end of August, Kyle and I had to put my beloved 17-year-old dachshund Yoo-Hoo down.

Life since then has been different. Missing something.

Yoo-Hoo was a big part of my world for nearly 1/2 my life. There’s a big hole in my heart and soul that has not healed from his loss. People say that time will help me heal, that time has been moving terribly slow.

His urn sits on the fireplace mantle, close to the warmth of the fire. That’s where he would love to lay there with Kyle for hours. I have fond memories of watching them lay there, Kyle would lay his hand over him and he would love that.. For a moment, then he would growl and want to be left alone. lol..

There’s a reason I’m setting this up.

If you follow my social channels, you’ve met Clark.

Clark is a 6-month-old light brown standard dachshund puppy. Kyle rescued him the day before Halloween after seeing an ad on Craigslist. Kyle was deeply concerned that he was rushing me into finding a new pup.

It had only been 2 months to the DATE that we let my little man cross the rainbow bridge. There are still times that I walk in the door and wait to hear his bark, and when I don’t… I sit on the floor and cry. The pain is still there, I have nightmares from watching him fall into that forever sleep.  There was NO way that I could wrap my arms around a new member of our family considering that I wasn’t over his loss.

People tell me that the pain will never go away, and I believe that to the core. I will never get over the loss of my sweet boy. However, Yoo-hoo would want us to open our hearts to another little man.

So here’s Clark..

Running and jumping, barking and playing. Tormenting the ever living out of Luci and truly bonding with our family. He came into our life for a reason, and I believe that Yoo-hoo put him there. He shows the same characteristics Yoohoo had at that age. Same temperament actually. Clark has made Yoo-hoo’s old bed his own, he sleeps with Yoo-hoo’s old blankets. Clark looks at me the way Yoo-hoo did when he was 6 months old. I remember those eyes, and I remember how stubborn he was. Clark is showing me that there is a little bit of Yoo-hoo in him.  And I’m just fine with that.  

Clark is Kyle’s dog.

NO QUESTION.

He follows him; sit on Kyle’s shoulder when watching TV. Talk about cuteness overload! When he is bad, Clark will listen to Kyle over me. Fun to watch Kyle train him. I remember those days and it makes my heart so happy watching them bond.  It’s making me happy to hear another bark, watch him actually smile as he runs thru the house. Most of all, feel the love from another fur baby. Clark has made his way into my heart and I’ll keep him here for a long time.

He is a good dog who had a bad start to life.

It’s our honor to have him as a part of our family and we love him very much!

Sorry it's been a while..

 I know that it has been a while since I have wrote anything. NO excuses, I just did not know what to write to be honest with you. 

The past few months I have spent journaling, segmented thoughts honestly. It’s when something comes to mind, a thought, phrase, feeling that I capture in the moment and write it down or in this case… put into my phone. Many thoughts have been segmented lately.

Just too busy to have time for myself.

So let’s play catch up..

 

My friend Elaine has finished her chemo/radiation for breast cancer 2 weeks ago! Great news!

Work has been so rewarding. I have some great bosses who let me continue my love for all things traffic.

There has been in 2 car accidents since November. One 10 days before Thanksgiving (which totaled my car) and the other happened in February while we were LIVE on the air at KIRO.

I did get hurt, while I maintained composure on the air. Several days later, the doctor diagnosed me with a concussion. There is a care plan in place for me, and I have been following that to a T.

Kiddo’s global reading challenge was a few weeks ago and the team did great! Took 4th place.

Spring break is next week and there is a LOT going on for all of us.

Spent some time with family in Eastern Washington.

And I'm ready for some warmer weather!

 

While it’s been brought up here before, I wanted to touch on something that has been weighing very heavily on my mind.

 

Depression.

 

Friends, you know that I’ve shared struggles with you about my battle. This time of year seems to be the hardest for me for some reason. I have not been able to pull myself up & out of this “Funk”. Not sure if it has something to do with friends/co-workers/life that’s been breaking me down.

Usually I lean on my husband or others for joy, because their joy makes me feel better. It helps me see some “light”.  It’s doesn’t always work so, I read Brene Brown.  She has has ONE POWERFUL message.

Owning my feelings and trying to walk thru them. While this is not a new path for me, this time feels different. Not sure if it is because I’ve shoved it down for so long? Made everyone else’s needs a priority over myself and just neglected what I was feeling?

I don’t have those answers.  The search for them continues.

It’s come down to self care, self preservation for me right now. Being selfish.

I’m ok with that.

This is a new journey of depression that I’m on. Never at anytime have these feelings come over me. While it’s scaring me, it’s forcing me to face these feelings head on. It’s exhausting running away from them, what good does that do?


At a young age, some of us ran from our problems, as an adult some of us still do.  The feeling to confront it, work thru the feeling, understanding & accepting it is extremely rewarding. I’m on that journey now.

While I do have someone to talk to, and a wonderful husband to lean on. I just want you to know that you are not alone in your journey. There is someone always here to help guide you.